Well my recent attempt at a complete self improvement overhaul has slowed to something a little to close to a halt for my taste. I'm exaggerating, of course but this is my third day of not being able to run because of the sharp shooting pain that has developed in both of my knees, most likely caused by the wrong shoes and a little too much too fast on the running front. or just a general lack of knowing what I'm doing... which is usually the culprit behind any ill informed venture. I thought this whole diet and exercise thing was supposed to be for my BENEFIT. WHAT GIVES?
I am not pleased.
Also decent running shoes are astoundingly expensive.
But, of course if I can spend eighty bucks on make up, I can most certainly cough up a hundo for a decent pairs of kicks.
New job is decent, one more day of training and then I'll be on my way to attempting to make as much money as humanly possible in the one month that I have left here in good ol' Cleveland. I like the staff, definitely a higher caliber of individuals than at the other gig, that is with out question.
It's really strange though. This whole prospect of moving away to au pair in France seems to have brought out the best in me vis a vis work ethic, organization, drive, and general joie de vivre... yet it still doesn't feel real. I guess it won't until I'm on the plane repeating holyshitholyshitholyshit the whole way over the Atlantic... but still. Work kind of flies by, or at least it did today. Really gotta get that mis en place shit down though damn. But yeah... I have more or less stopped caring about other's opinions of me, which... I realize now played a huge part into my general malaise. I really just don't give a fuck. That is to say that, sans my notorious antics that have driven me to the status of veritable social pariah, I think I'm actually I pretty decent individual. I'm just not about to go and try to prove that to everyone that still maintains that I am "bat-shit insane" as someone so eloquently put it last summer.
The whole thing is kind of laughable, all in all. And they do say that people hate what they fear... or something like that. I don't know. I do know however that this quote really made my day.
"The unexamined life is not worth living for a human being" -Socrates
Ain't that the truth.
T-minus 40 some odd days until departure.
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